NOTHING

Sometimes

it's easier

to pretend

nothing happens

you feel nothing

you are alright

than to dwell

in uncertainty

eat you inside

make you unhappy

make you confuse

make you angry

let fate decides

what life will bring

cause

you feel exhausted

of trying hard

but it is

worth nothing.

LET ME

People
never ask me
what I want to do
with my life
they keep trying
to make me live
their life
follow their standards
tell me what I should do
tell me what I should say
tell me what I should wear
I have my own ways
I have my own standards
I am a big person now
so just let me
say what I want to say
do what I want to do
wear what I want to wear
be what I want to be
cause your ignorance
of me as an individual
make me sick
make me suffocated
make me angry
make me rebel
make me depress
but
I'll be stronger
cause I'm a warrior
cause I'm a lion
i promise myself
to never give up
though how much
I've been hurt
I've been looked down
I've been bleed
I've been broken.

NEEDY

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

NEEDY

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

NEEDY

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

NEEDY

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

You need me
more 
than 
I need you
so
be nice to me
or
get lost

LIFE IS LIKE PLAYING CHESS

BLIND (LIFEHOUSE)

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I LIE

I lie to you
cause I don't want
to look stupid
to  look weak.

I lie to you
pretend nothing happened
the truth is
it haunts me everyday.

I lie to you
cause I want you to be happy
and it's my pride
I don't want you
to feel bad.

I pretend 
I'm alright
the truth is
I'm not
I need you
I want to talk to you
I want to hear your story.

I'm lost without you
I'm losing you
somehow
I'm losing myself
cause
I've put my trust on you
and
you have taken it away.

You treat me like a garbage
I deserved that 
I know
and now you'll see
I played a victim
though I try to be strong
a part of me
have been taken away
by YOU!

WRECKING BALL (MILEY CYRUS)

We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain
We jumped never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell.
A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

For You

CREEPY

People will call you 
names
weirdo
creepy
nasty remarks
somehow 
straight to your face
like you have
no feelings at all
you have been through it
like cycle
though you hate it
nothing much
you can do
it's who you are
stay true
let them hate you
for who you are
than loving you
for fake personality. 

5 YEARS

In 5 years

where I want to be

among the elite groups?

among the academicians?

among the musicians?

I'm honestly not sure

as far as I know

I just want to be happy

enjoy the moments

though I'm full of

worries

doubts

mixed feelings

it's alright

life is a journey

we are travelers

everyone is

I am a traveler

just live you life.

FOR YOU

There is something

I want to say

About the way

You look at me

The way

You make me feel

The way

I’m addicted to you

It’s about you

Always about you

Though it’s my special day

It’s always about you

But I still like you

No matter what you say

No matter what you do

I still love you

Your charming style

Your sweet smile

I’ll remember forever

The way you care for me

The way you put me first

The way you raise me up

The way you advise me

The way you guide me

The way you whisper to me

Like no others

Wish you are mine

Though it seems impossible

Though it sounds weird

Like a dream

A sweet and wild one

Like a fairy tale

A weird one

I’ll say for once

For the rest of my life

You’ll always a part of me

Pieces of me

Though I try to hide

Seems like I go nowhere

I’m still here

Waiting for you

Going to the places

We used to be

Going to eat

Where we used to eat

Going to recall

What we used to talk

Going to remember

What we used to do

I love you

Thank you

For being there

When I need you most

Thank you

For everything

Let bygone be bygone

But memories remain.

INSECURE

Somehow

I’m just pretty stupid

Ignorant

Day dreaming

Don’t state the obvious

I know who I am

For you

To make me look

Like a fool

I can’t forgive

Or forget

Really

I’m that insecure.

WHY???

I didn't know why
you were the one
I chose to trust
then you left me.

I feel suffocated
I feel weak
I'm all alone.

SMILE

At least
you are smiling
to me
when I think
you only have hatred
towards me
though I don't know
it is sincere
or because of your friends
or your charming nature
I fake smile sometimes
so I understand.

I’m weird

I’m unique

I know

I can’t help it.

I have felt

Embarrassed

Sad

Humiliated

All my life.

Nonsense

Working

Then spending

For your work

Truly nonsense.

Don’t feel weird

By my weirdness

I know who I am

Don’t state the obvious.

I don’t want to be

What I am now

I want to be a traveler

But how?

Really

I don’t know.

I am easily affected

By people’s actions

Why can’t I be cool

And let things flow

Guess it’s me

Who attach too much

Just let it be.

I am no one

People give me titles

Weirdo

Miss

Girl

Woman

Whatever.

I’m always a fool

No matter where I am.