broken - lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

i

I’m not an average

I don’t know how to be one

I fight

I struggle

I cry

I smile

I stumble

I pray

I bleed

I hope

I fail

I win

Cause

I’m not an average.

A LIAR

I lie

I have lots of things to do

I lie

I have lots of things to think

I lie

I have lots of burden

I lie

I have lots of challenges

I lie

I have lots of insecurities

I lie

Cause it’s easier to lie

Cause I’ve been backstabbed

Cause I’ve been hurt

And the scars remain

Forever

I’m a liar.

EARTH

Venice, Italy

New York

Singapore

Brunei

Dubai

Santorini, Greece

Egypt

South Africa

China

India

One day.

WEAK

I have nothing better to do

Except hoping

And holding on

Many things in life

Kills me inside

Left me breathless

I have nothing

Except my spirit

When I’m losing it

I feel all weak

I feel all alone

I fell all worthless.

PEOPLE

People can judge you
people can advise you
people can say anything
but you know yourself better
you live your life
people can support you
people can look down upon you
people can ignore you
people can bring you down
people can cheer you up
but it's all inside you
no matter what
you write your own destiny
everyone has own journey
your fate is in your hands
let them say what they want
let them do things to tear you down
have faith
you are special
you are somebody
you are independant
you can live on your own
you can be what you want to be
you can do what you want to do
just be yourself
your awesome self
then happiness will reveal
you own your body
you own your self
you own the earth.

DIE

Everyone will die one day
but what matters most
what you do before die
and what you do while dying
for people like me
i choose to live life
i choose to enjoy life
not merely surviving
cause life is
what you've left behind
the road you've taken
the path you cross
it makes all the difference.

THINGS

things that have been done

things can't be undone

things you regret

somehow

make you who you are

no need to worry

no need to sorry

better than undone

better than unsaid

better than nothing

at least

you are something

you are someone

at your own league

based on your standard.

KILL

It can kill you

the things you've said

the things you've done

kill you inside

though

make you feel alive

safe and sound

be in serenity.

TRIFLES

I think a lot

about trifles

about small things

somehow

about big things

the ideas

the practice

everything in between

i think a lot

and left blaming on others

blaming on consequences

blaming on myself most.

BITTER

I try to hold on

tiring easily

made me paralysed

sleepy and dizzy

i give up easily

mentally exhausted

physically strained

spiritually weak

and i die

inside eventually

outside i smile

a bitter smile.

MESS

There's a mess somehow
cause life is not easy
they're holes everywhere
and every time
there is misery
cause life
and heart
once they're broken
not easy to mend
paralyzed
suffocated
it's just life anyway
let it be.

AWARE

To be aware of things 

somehow

is to ignore things

cause awareness

comes with ignorance

you just can't be aware

of everything

neither be shut down

to everything

life is a balance

but

balancing is not easy

just be yourself 

everyone is taken

same case with you.

TO BE

To be

or not to be

to go

or not to go

Hamlet much

once a loner

always a loner

once a sinner

always a sinner

not easy to change

not easy to transform.