ONE DAY

If you ask me
what i truly
want to be
i will say
i want to be rich
i want to be a traveller
being in Paris and London
France and Greece
all around the world
i want to be free
free to be what i want to be
free to say what i want
free to eat what i want
free to wear what i want
free to do what i want
having free will
without fear
of being judged
of affecting my salary
i want to be a feminist
a tough lady
fighting for the rights
but the reality check
i'm far from that
it's still a long way
however
i believe in the word
ONE DAY!

TRIALS

The difficulties
the trials
I'd been in
teach me
to be yourself
to say your own thoughts
to live up to your own standard
to be resilient
to keep head held up
no matter what happened
life goes on
i won't change myself
for anything
the uniqueness
the weirdness
those make me me
though people will say things
though people won't agree
just stay true to yourself
cause in the end
you are solely alone.

ALL I WANT

if there are things
i want to change 
about myself
i want to be taller
i want to be raised up in urban area
i want to talk fluently
i want to have slim figure
i want to be consistent
i want to have solid identity
i want to be normal
then i realize
all i want is
to be MYSELF.

HATE

I hate many things 
about myself
my height
my low self-esteem
my inconsistency
my body
my health
my colour
my face
my background
my mood swings
my speech impairment
my weakness
my disbelief kindness
my rudeness
i hate many things
about me
but then
i realize
they all make me me
they all bring me far
i should be grateful
and cherish them all.

MANY ANY

People call me

many things

anything

at first I'm angry

sad and frustrated

then I get used to it

I don't mind much

but I've learnt

to stand out 

for myself

and to love myself.

LOVE

Love is blind
truly
when you love someone
somehow
you forget about yourself
you forget about your goals
you forget about your dreams
you forget about domination
you forget about priority
you forget about your body
you forget about your health
you forget about everything
you'll be a fool
because of love.

CHARISMA

To tell the truth
I can't help
from falling in love
with you
your voice
your charm
your charisma
your sweet smile
your eyes
are so wonderful
please don't be in love
with someone else.

MOVE

If there is one thing
I want to say
to you
is
I hate you
for making me
feel so bad
so freaking bad
but
I have moved on.

VOICE

One night
without listening
to your husky voice
something is not right
yes
I'm your fan
you might realize
and might not
really 
I'm a fan.

IF

If there is one thing
I want to say
to my old self
Be consistent!
Be brave!
Speak up!
But
past is past
I can't change any
I won't regret either
just knowing
deep in my heart
I'm not the same
again and forever.

AWARE

To be aware
of the surroundings
is a gift
can be a curse
depends.

LIVE

I want to live

as I want

without people judging me

saying that I'm

like this like that

I never chase perfection

cause no one

will be perfect

but

for you

to put me below average

to look down upon me

is not right

for that

I beg to differ

let me be me

simple.

IT'S MY LIFE (BON JOVI)

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted 
No silent prayer for the faith-departed 
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd 
You're gonna hear my voice 
When I shout it out loud 

[Chorus:]
It's my life 
It's now or never 
I ain't gonna live forever 
I just want to live while I'm alive 
(It's my life) 
My heart is like an open highway 
Like Frankie said 
I did it my way 
I just wanna live while I'm alive 
It's my life 

This is for the ones who stood their ground 
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down 
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake 
Luck ain't even lucky 
Got to make your own breaks 

[Chorus:]
It's my life 
And it's now or never 
I ain't gonna live forever 
I just want to live while I'm alive 
(It's my life) 
My heart is like an open highway 
Like Frankie said 
I did it my way 
I just want to live while I'm alive 
'Cause it's my life 

Better stand tall when they're calling you out 
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down 

[Chorus:]
It's my life 
And it's now or never 
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever 
I just want to live while I'm alive 
(It's my life) 
My heart is like an open highway 
Like Frankie said 
I did it my way 
I just want to live while I'm alive 

[Chorus:]
It's my life 
And it's now or never 
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever 
I just want to live while I'm alive 
(It's my life) 
My heart is like an open highway 
Like Frankie said 
I did it my way 
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

EVERYTHING NOTHING

i have everything

most of them

but somehow

feel like having none

guess it's just me

a lost soul.

EMPTY

the emptiness

since you're gone

is unbearable

i feel like having none

no one to talk to

no one to laugh with

i try to make it logical

but feelings are

somewhat illogical

i hate that.

TRUTH

i don't want to be alone

but

i don't want to be owned

either

so?

i don't know

paralysed

guess

i'm just that

insecure

narcisstic

weird.

WHAT IF

What if
tomorrow
i'm dying
do i prepare?
i don't know
i have many sins
a lot of mistakes.

EASY

It's not easy
when you are
vulnerable
to various feelings
though you try to hide
they show anyway
besides
killing you inside
and i hate that.

WEAK

At times

I feel so weak

So fragile

Inside and outside

I feel so hopeless

And want to end

Then

I remember

How plenty I’ve achieved

How long I’ve hold on
how grateful I should be

And cherish the life

Though it’s not that happy

It can be a meaningful one

Live your life!

SMILE

I used to smile

Since I met you

Then you’ve gone

A part of me left

So did my smile

And now

I need a reason

To smile again

Guess I’ve failed.

EASY

People say

Like it’s easy

But really

It’s hard for people

Like me

Everyday I strive

To leave my own mark

To build my own legacy

At least

To be noticed and respected

Cause living without

Purpose

is not worth living for.

MOCK

When people mock me

I won't look at their faces

I'll just ignore

cause I don't want to

remember

people who make me sad

with low mentality

look down upon me.

USED TO BE

Knowing you are hurt

cause of me

made me feel awful

it's my bad

Why should you suffer?

Please don't leave me

please don't go

please don't walk away

I want you

as a company

like we used

to be.

HELLO

You know what?

I didn't remember

how to laugh

till you came to my life

you greeted me 'hello' 

then now

you wave me goodbye

how could I accept it

I could not understand it

and

I still wish for you

I still long for you.

I BELIEVE

I believe

you won't look at me

the same

cause of what

happened

I just amaze

at how empty my life is

without you

I'm just nobody

I wish you are here.

STRANGER

I want to tell many things

to you

but you are not for me

any more

you are stranger now

okay

goodbye.

TIMES

In times of loneliness

I remember you

in times of sadness

I want you

in times of despair

I love you.

SORRY

The things I've failed

to remain with you

to maintain our relationship

to be in serenity

to keep you close

to be together

to be friends

to remain as company

to help each other

but

guess I've failed

you and me

SORRY.